3 blocks I'm currently moving through

Why, hello there, internet 👽

It’s been a while since I’ve shared what’s going on in my world, but today I’m feeling the undeniable tug to rip off the bandaid and flex my fingers on this keyboard thing.

A few days ago, I got a clear download and a hit of inspiration. As a result, I was high on life, eager to get back into my creative flow with a whole spankin’ new business. But a couple of roadblocks reared their heads…

1) The Fear of Being Unapologetically Me 🥸

I fantasize about pulling back the curtains and FULLY letting you in—about baring my soul and showing up as the most authentic and unfiltered version of me. But there's this niggling fear—what if I'm misunderstood? I’ve been dreaming of creating a sacred, raw, honest space for mamas (more on this soon), but if I’m being truthful, not doing it “right” and being canceled makes me want to shut down.

I absolutely value the moments when I'm invited to see things differently and grow. But the constant scrutiny and relentless nitpicking? It can be so incredibly draining. It sometimes feels easier and safer to retreat into my personal cocoon rather than continuously prove and justify myself to those who might not even wish to understand and make space for alternative perspectives.

2)The Tug-of-War Between Passion and Planning 📝

When the initial ideas for my biz began brewing, they felt exhilarating. I was so excited to create for creation’s sake and to let pleasure be my compass. But then, logic tried to take the reins. I was drowning in design choices, platform decisions, and the looming question of who I'm speaking to and what they want. The initial thrill started to feel overwhelming, and the clarity I once felt was replaced by doubt.

When I felt my spirit felt more burdened than buoyant, I knew I had to hit pause to get still, reflect, and realign.

3) Loving Life Offline ✌🏻

Lately, I've hit pause on the constant online buzz. It’s been so liberating to live life for ME. To not feel the need to show up on social in a specific way or to attempt to make my life feel aspirational, relatable, interesting, or whatever. I don’t want to feel like I always have to be “on” and share in a way that will get engagement.

And I don’t want to miss out on monumental or mundane moments with Aisy and the people I care about most. Because life isn’t about curating for an audience; it's about living authentically, in the present.

So, where does this leave me (and you)? Amidst the muddle of fear, the tangle of too many thoughts, and the pull of real life, I know one thing: I’m a creative being who yearns to express myself and give life to what’s within me. 💥

If you’ve been following me for the past year or so, what’s to come won’t be too much of a surprise—but there will be new twists and flavors. 🌶

Oh, and I’m not doing this solo.

More to come… 😏

With love and spice,

Lex

PS — Do you relate to any of those blocks? Which ones are currently standing in your way and how are you feeling about 'em? Comment below and let me know.

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